Last week I began my twentieth year. (Most would say I’m nineteen, but…)
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I think most people my age want to rush into their futures. In some ways I do want to plunge into my plans. But I am so enjoying the life that God has given me right now, that I want it to slow . . . way . . . down so I can thoroughly soak it up and appreciate it.
Perhaps that is why I feel old-ish.
There are those days when I get a little antsy. Not discontent, but . . . I guess the word is eager. Eager to see what comes next. But there is still so much for me to learn before that time comes, and there is so much in the waiting to keep me busy! ;)
Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. -Ephesians 5:15-16 (ESV)
But am I redeeming the time? And I don’t just mean that in the context of preparing for marriage, but for the entire short, fleeting vapor of my life. Am I preparing to be a wise and teaching mother? A physician? A gardener, a nurturer of souls?
I often fail and allow frivolous things to distract me, but my Lord is always beside me, teaching me, guiding me back to where I need to be. Helping me to notice the little things and see His fingerprints. Showing me His Sovereignty and Providence. And drawing me ever closer to Him.
As a daughter of the King of kings, I need to want to be as productive as God will give me strength to be. So while I soak up this beautiful life with its little foibles and fascinations, I’ll leave the time tables up to Him and learn all I can to be prepared for whatever He has in store for me.
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“May our sons in their youth be like plants full grown,
our daughters like corner pillars cut for the structure of a palace.”
- Psalm 144:12 (ESV)